The time is yours

My son wakes up early. He said that he has the last final semester test today. His school apllies five day school week, but today is an exception. This Saturday will be his only day that schools opens for test. School opens only till Friday.
He does not study, read, nor do activities that represent learning (reading or practicing lesson). His time is filled by game and maybe online chatting.

I myself have come to realize that this is my first day that l am home and the time is really mine. I am usually given time by the moderator or MC. He will say "time is yours" then l will have 2 to 3 hours for myself to speak to the audience.  It is my time, but my time is alloted by other.

I feel like flying as my time is really mine. I can use it without the control of the moderator. I can speak,  l can alos not speak, l can answer my own  question,  l can  listen  to my questions too.

For others, what l said above may sound funy. But for me, who always have time given by the MC or moderator, this time is so different. l always be borrowed time by the committee. During that borrowed time, my brain, my act,  my words are not for my purpose.

Now,  l feel a bit confused how to  spend my day when no schedule given.  I can say, l am used to being scheduled. Well, l can start using my own time with washing clothes, dishes,  cutting grass, and then conrinue reading My life with Write boys.

Mira is here this Saturday. She joins scout activities.  I think, she is trying to enjoy her teenage life by making frienda from all walk of life. Sometimes l am worried that she is trapped by modern but harmful life. I always tell myself that the world out there is dangerous and full of intrigue.

My husband is going to Bandung to join gathering party. He must be responsible for ten of man as audience for party big meeting. His leaving makes me learn new thing. In a party there is a kind of fake big mass meeting.  The people who gathered and yell the glory of a party is a setting and planned.

Time which is an expensive commodity for me becomes useless when l spend it only for analyzing what my husband  do with his time. Then, to make my time effective, now, l start cutting grass and at the samwme time let the washing machine spins.