I am not a popular girl when l was at my first grade of my senior high. I can still remember how my existence at the class is considered meaningless.
That day, my friend named Ajat talked to me. It almost never happened that male students talked to me for any reason. My physical appearance becomes unaccepted as my left eye blind. I can undesrtand that. Many of new students try to find a perfect friend, physically as the first list.
I usually sat alone or sometimes with a girl who was also not popular. I forgot her name. What l remember is that she has long straight hair, she is from southeren part of Cianjur which means villager. She was super shy, never talked.
I did not care much about having friend or not. I care more to my education and be successful student. However, l am not so smart comparing to rest member of the class. I sit in the middle rank amongst my friend, 25 out of 45. My physical condition and my sick eye drive me behind in studying.
Back to the day Ajat talked to me. He tried to make a conversation. I can see his uncomfortable when he is talking. I guess he is afraid being found that he talked to me, an unpopular and a freak.
I did not remember why the talk come to birthday. I said that today is my birthday. He looked very surprised. How his stupid talk makes him owe to say happy birthday. I myself feel weird. Never in my life one asked my birthday. I am invisible.
The talk about my birthday end nowhere. He mever talks to me again. Perhaps he is afraid that whatever he said will owe him something in the end. I do not think about having more talk with him or another student. Inferior causes me want to talk to no one.
I remember this talk as l read a chapter that its title 'when is your birthday?'
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